Dear Evie Grace,I had a baby girl four years ago from last Friday. She was an itty bitty preemie, so precious, but just a little too new. As soon as she was born, her doctor took her to the NICU (that is a special part of the hospital for very tiny babies) so I did not get to hold her. I cried, I cried so much. As soon as my doctor allowed me, I visited her EVERY moment that I could, and when I would hold her (finally!) all of my loneliness for her would disappear. For the next week, I spent every day at the hospital with my sweet baby. I filled her little room with pink, and I dressed her in pink from head to toe! I cried when she was sick, and I prayed for her to be well enough to go home! Do you know, My Sweet Evie, who that baby girl was? She was you! You were that beautiful, wonderful, preemie baby girl! After a week in the hospital you were well enough to go home, and that was the happiest day of my life! We wouldn't be apart anymore, I could take you home, and you could finally be ALL mine! Evie, I quickly learned that taking care of you was very hard. You were so small with so many huge needs and struggles. I soon felt that I was not strong enough to be a mommy, I just refused to be ok with God over the way your life began. What I knew at first was mostly frustration, and disappointment in God's plan for me and you. I'm not sure that I knew how to be a good grown up then, or that I knew much of being selfless, but God slowly used you to change everything about me. God gave you to me to help me grow. Being your mommy has not always been an easy job, but it has always been a most joyful job! YOU are a blessing to me! I praise God for the 1,460 days of your precious life so far!
"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord..." Jeremiah 28:15
"The Lord has done great things for us; We are glad"!
"The Lord has done great things for us; We are glad"! Psalm 126:3
"... I came that they may have life, and have it abundantly"!
"... I came that they may have life, and have it abundantly"! John 10:10
"I will give thanks to You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
Wonderful are Your works, And my soul knows it very well." Psalm 139 :14
Love Always,
Mommy
4 comments:
I love it! It was written beautifully and I know Evie will enjoy reading this one day! Hugs to you!!
WOw! Time flies so fast. It seems like she was just born yesterday and her she is 4 years old!! Such a sweet young lady!
Evie, you are my world! I love both you and Annie so much you just can't imagine! Happy birthday my big girl....I am so looking forward to having another year of you at home before you start school. I know you are ready for you to go to school, but I am not ready for you to go to school! ;) Love you!
Megan, this is so sweet. And I can't believe four years have already gone by -- it must be so much more unbelievable to you and Ben! :) Happy birthday Evie!!!
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